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Comment Here to be Added Yup, not all my entries are public. Tell me a bit about yourself cos these days I prefer friends around my age, but I pretty much get on with everyone xD Anywhoo, whether you're adding me or not... Comments are looove and I always reply if I have something to say :P Enjoy~! :D♥ Jess.xx :: +Memory :: Share :: 80 replies :: Reply So I was just thinking to myself what a lucky nearly-20-year-old I am... I'm in a relationship lasting 4 years, things at home have settled and I get on with my parents and sister, I have great friends, hardly any enemies, I have a car now, passed second year of uni, have a job with great pay and don't rely on parents, and am planning a holiday abroad with my 4 years! It's hard to get a job these days, car insurance is expensive, teen relationships generally don't last this long etcetc..... Basically, I am really lucky. I think some people can make a big deal out of little issues in life, they don't realise that there are other much more unfortunate people out there... I experience little problems everyday but just keep smiling, and that is the sweetest revenge... But like I said, I have few enemies ;] I can't be bothered with trouble anymore... I just hope I dont sound like I'm bragging, right now! I'm just happy and want to share...? xD Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.
My exam timetable is actually crazy, I can't handle it: 19th - Brain and Behaviour (essay based) 20th - Social Psychology (multiple choice questions - MCQ) 23rd - Stats (3hr question and answer) 24th - Developmental (essay based) 28th - Intelligence and Personality (essay based) 6th - Cognitive Psychology (MCQ) The last exam is stupid... It's probably the easiest one cos I only need to revise the lecture notes, yet there's such a huge break before it. All my other exams require extra reading which I'm poor at, and there's no time in between each exam!!!!! God help us!!!!!!!!!! I've done reading an studied hard for my first and second exams. The first one, I cried over afterwards. There is a good chance that module will make me fail the whole year (we need to pass EACH and EVERY module on its own to pass the whole year), even though I studied and tried!! It's not fair... My biggest fear is having to repeat the whole year which will waste a chunk of my life, and that fear is becoming a reality. Hopefully, if I hae to resit in September, it will only be for 1 exam, before I come back for 3rd Year on the following October... I don't wanna do resits, though... I wanna pass nowww. But Tuesday's exam was awfulll..... I guess resits are better than repeating the year... I felt good in yesterday's exam but there's the worry of what my answer's actually worth. I'm starting to worry that my answers weren't detailed enough or scientific. All I want is to pass... It's be nice to do well, but now just scraping a pass will be good for me. I know that's a bad way of thinking... I shouldn't even be updating, I should be revising but I have no motivation... Please, guys... Wish me luck for later... I've probably failed one module/exam already, this current exam is not looking good... But hopefully my guessing game will go well, arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh. GOOD NEWS: Jess can legally drive on her own now! I passed my driving test 2 weeks ago, and that moment of joy when I was told I passed puts a smile on my face everyyytime I think of it. As my dad said, it actually makes you 'feel over the moon'. It's hard to pass, and now I know I have this pink license for life! My dad tried to buy a car for me yesterday (even though I'm in Colchester), but the salesperson was very rude so my dad didn't get it -_-; I'm going home on the 28th before my last exam for a break... Hopefully I'll be coming back with my car! Hope my dad finds another good car, with a polite salesperson this time xD Kool, guyz! Wish me luck... I'll read your journals after exams xxx This lj app on my iPhone is quite good. I've actually been reading friends entries everyday ^_^ Hopefully I'm getting back into this... I do miss all my friends when I'm inactive. And I miss being like, addicted to this site, lol. A lot of good memories here... A couple of days ago I wanted to leave this, I don't think I will be any time too soon, now. I've had a pretty rough week, don't really wanna talk about it, hah. But Jean has been trying and has been there for me... :) No offence, but I think boys/men can be slow sometimes when it comes to a girls' feelings/wants/needs, but it's ok :):) I love you, Jean...<3 Anywhoo, I learnt that I may revise better in Starbucks! At home I have everyone talking to me, the tv, the ps3, ughhhhh. I still need to revise faster, though... I can't believe I only have one week left of this Easter vacation and then 3 weeks before exams... Ugh, please... Roll on June 7th when my finals end! [and when Super Street Fighter 4 Arcade Edition comes out, lawl]. I'm not looking forward to working as a waitress again, though! But I have to cos I am actually becoming really poor D: I really should find an educational placement this summer, as well... I had a nightmare last night where I was driving my dad's car on my own, then there was some sort of festival or carnival and I was trapped in the middle of it with my friends. Then some weird police guy in pink told me to stop being stupid with my car, so I said ok, and for some reason the car turned into a toy car and I carried it home O_o I was scared I was gonna get in trouble for driving on my own without a valid license. Then I got home and confessed to my dad and he didn't say anything... God, dreams are strange. Sometimes I think about keeping a dream journal, but I never do :P I had another dream where I was with my 2 close uni friends (who I saw on Wednesday in reality), and me and Hanna wanted a haircut. And we were waiting... Only to realise all places were closed cos of the Royal Wedding. How stupid of us, lol. You know how I had started dieting? It went well :) Until I started eating out... And then decided to treat myself for once to junk food when i spent one week with a loved one... Jeez, lol. But when I got home for Easter I found I lost one stone! But I'm pretty sure I put it all back on now cos my mum sometimes cooks unhealthy food and won't stop buying luxury ice cream!!!!! Which i find myself eating everyday!!!!!!!!!! Going out with friends also means eating out... I went to a CHOCOLATE FESTIVAL at one point. So I've given up and decided I'll just diet again when I'm in control of my shopping and cooking at uni. Haha. Small update turned big. Love you guyz. Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. I replied to my latest comments but I don't think they posted or anything. Even though I hit post and saw it load -_- Well, just wanna say thank you to everyone who's still alive on this, and thanks for all the kind and encouraging words on my twice a year entries *hugs everyone* Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone. If someone insults you when you're walking down the street, what do you do? First question listed was submitted by Depends on what it is (hopefully nothing racial), I'd probably just shout at them saying, 'Do you not have better things to do with your life?!' I get angry pretty easily, and I find it hard to simply ignore :/ I have high pride..... I was gonna say the prisoner should be able to decide if they wanna spend the rest of their life in prison or just end their own life quickly. Cos it's their life. I was also gonna say it depends on the crime that had been committed. But I'm against the death penalty, only God should take away lives and suicide (choosing to die) is a sin.
Tbh, though... Jean's dad got me the job, so I'm lucky and very thankful! Even though working is very stressful, damn! The training there isn't very good... Btw, I am a cashier and waitress in the dining room/restaurant of a members club/conference venue... The members being ex-militants who are mainly the elderly! Then there are function rooms of course, where important members of society have meetings? I basically tidy up some of the function rooms, mainly the cutlery of course :P Anyway, the training... The first few days, I can say I just played parrot. Just copied everyone... On how to set up tables, what to do first with customers etctec. No one really told you how/what to do unless something was happening, does that make sense? My main role is as a cashier... *sigh* There are days where I feel pro at it, but next I make mistakes, making chefs annoyed. Cos as a cashier, you are given the orders, where you electronically input the orders which get sent to the kitchen/chefs. I make silly mistakes like, sending off 1 order instead of 2... But one of the chefs gets annoyed easily! Pissed off, more like! I'd really like him to try be a cashier one day! He isn't even a real chef, and I'm not just saying that!! I'd understand getting annoyed after 3 mistakes, but he gets annoyed straight away! Today, he came out of the kitchen and just gave me evils... Wtf?! You complain that my mistakes holds customers up, but your bitching is holding them up more, isn't?! The pay is really good at £8.65 and they pay for other stuff like travel as well... But I don't wanna just get paid for my time... I want it to be rewarding... I want to be good and therefore enjoy what I do. Everyday I hope things will go smoothly with the electronic orders and payments (another mistake I make, is having someone pay for the wrong table with both of us not realising it!). Today, the chef asked me if I'm working tomorrow... And obviously wasn't happy when I said yes... :( I feel so stupid. But I also complained saying he has enough time to scream in the kitchen and give me evils (immature?), which led to my colleague saying he once got sacked for arguing with a chef. And my other colleague sympathised saying she was once a cashier and she knows how tough it is. She's just a waitress now, so I assume she really doesn't like being a cashier, hence knowing how tough it is... I'm currently replacing a cashier who is on holiday. She comes back at the end of next week and a part of me can't wait, but another part really wants to master the till before she does come back. Not to mention, when I really am on the floor (just a waitress), I may still have new and stressful things to learn :/ Mistakes to make... I worry that Jean's dad is starting to see a more stupid side to his son's girlfriend..... It's getting late, I should get in bed soon. Work again tomorrow! There are a few more things to update on, but it's the usual stuff... Also, I read your journals recently, will try to catch up again soon! Here are some pictures: Summer School Break 2010 Pre-19th Birthday Celebration... Btw. I PASSED MY FIRST YEAR OF UNI! WOO HOO!! xD'
I have an exam on this computer program called SPSS for Statistics, this coming Thursday. I'm seriously not looking forward to it, I have no confidence... I haven't looked into revising for this particular exam... I'm just running away. But revision for the 2 exams after, is going well :'] Can't wait to go home on the 19th... I've got SO MUCH to update on. But I'm slowly putting my life back together... And dealing with situations better... I don't even think of self harming anymore..... Besides this little cry, I've been good >.< I know I've been behind on your journals. You're all students :P You should understand :P:P That's all for now... I feel better now :] Back to revision.xoxo |
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